Commentary on the Rule of St. Benedict by Mother Rebecca
Verses 31-32 of the prologue: In just this way, Paul the Apostle refused to
take credit for the power of his preaching.
He declared: By God’s grace I am what I am”. And again he said: He who boasts should make his boast in the
Lord.”
In four consecutive verses St Benedict has repeated six
times one specific teaching: “they
praise God working in them”, “not to us but to your name give the glory”, “by
God’s grace I am what I am”, “He who boast should make his boast in God”,
“judge it as the Lord’s power and not their own”, and “refuse to take credit
for the power”. Benedict seems to be
perhaps a bit worried that his monks will see their works and power as their
own and thus “fall headlong” into vainglory.
Michael Casey says we do not need to be doing anything in particular to be in union
with God but rather allow all things
to bring us to that loving stance. Spiritual
progress can be measured by our ability to integrate our work and our prayer
until our entire life becomes a single unending prayer – a channel for God to
do His works of Love. How are we doing in this crucial spiritual
task? How will I reveal that Love
today? Casey says (quote) “It is
good to practice self-denial and to give interval time to prayer but this is no
excuse for ignoring appropriate relationships, the obligations of work, and the
demands charity makes. Spiritual growth
is not registered by the strict observances and needing time for this or that
but rather spiritual progress is habitually seen in growth in availability, in
a certain lightness of being, and in simple, uncomplicated happiness”. So another way we can measure our monastic
growth is by the measure of our freedom to be available in community and its
daily demands. This reminds me of a
statement from Walter Kasper that has stuck with me since my novitiate
days. His stated that “true freedom
means availability”!
We often attribute our inability to find inner rest or
the freedom to be available to external causes.
But the truth is that if we are unable to find this inner freedom, it is
because of a divided heart, not because of all the things we need to do. It is a lack of integration of our work and
prayer. Gandhi said “we will never find
rest, even alone in solitude, if we are anxious, turbulent, curious, or even
overzealous!” We are called not to avoid things that disturb us but to
learn not to let anything disturb
us. There is a big difference between
these two approaches. Benedict has told
us several times in the Prologue that our main task is not to swell
the ego but to expand the heart! Virtue can only grow in humility; vice
always grows in vainglory no matter how good the work.
Timothy Radcliffe said “When we pray, we are liberated
from the terrible burden of thinking that we are tremendously important, and
that everything depends on us. This is
not a license for irresponsibility but a prerequisite of proper
responsibility. Adam and Eve lost the
joy of paradise because they did not trust in God whose only desire was to give
them more than they could desire. They grabbed at the fruit because they would
not let God be God and so destroyed their own happiness.”
Hildemar, who wrote the first known commentary on the Rule back in
the 800’s, said “it is called a grace because it is given for naught. Whenever
you use the word grace, you exclude all merit”.
The Apostle Paul says in his 1st letter to the Corinthians that “the
grace of God was not in vain in me” [1 Cor
15:10].
Again he says in the 2nd letter to the Corinthians “We encourage you,
brothers, not to receive God’s grace in vain” [2 Cor 6:1]. How does one receive God’s grace in
vain? Hildemar answers, “You have
received baptism but if you do not live according to baptism, you have received
God’s grace in vain. Again: you received the gift of obedience: if you do not
show obedience, you have received the grace of God in vain.” You have received the gift of humility: if
you are not humble, you have received God’s grace in vain. We see that God’s only desire is to give us more than we can desire. A joy
complete. Have I received that grace of
joy in vain? Or is there any grace that
I have been given for naught that I am wasting?
I read a story (by Wayne Muller, Sabbath)
about a friend of Henri Nouwen who was reading an article in The New Yorker and came across Henri’s
name. It seemed Hillary Clinton had been
reading his writings on gratefulness and forgiveness. So he called Henri to ask about it. Henri told him that he had been invited to go
to the White House to be a spiritual counselor.
While he was appreciative of the Clinton’s request and while the White House
invitation seemed to be a recognition of the importance of spiritual masters,
he nevertheless sent his apologies, and did not go. “I don’t want to be the court chaplain”, he
said, “I am here with Adam, my disabled friend. There are others who can go to the White
House. Adam needs me.” Henri was not boasting in himself but recognized
his call was to a disabled child. I
wonder if Adam ever knew that he was chosen over the President of the United
States. Did Adam know how important he
was, confined to a wheelchair and needing constant care?
But to bring this closer to home, do we, like Henri, see our life in community in this manner? Do I
realize that I am where I am meant to be – that God has called me to be who I
am here at OLM? There are no splashes
here but there are those in need around me that I am called to serve and to
love. Stability in my community life is
all the boasting I have and it all goes to God who called me to this wonderful,
yet hidden and humble, vocation.
So let us take heed of St Benedict’s teaching for we can
only find peace in our soul, and be a flowing channel of God’s love, when we
can say with joy and gratitude “By God’s grace I am what I am.”
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